Poetry

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dirge

we would have flowers at the grave stone of our relationship
if we cut the chord
the coroner would find the cause of death
it would be you who killed us

our memories would get put in the coffin
they would be left there
to slowly waste away
then the grieving process would set in

i would try to move on
or pretend to
then you would settle in someone else’s arms
someone who ain’t me
then i would beat my heart into a coma
hoping it would never wake up

we would have flowers at the grave stone of our relationship
if we cut the chord
the coroner would find the cause of death
it would be you who killed us

Vanessa Maki is a writer (& other things) who is queer & full of black girl magic. She’s been published in Enclave, Faded Out, Rag Queen Periodical, Occulum, Five:2:One Magazine, SYS, horny poetry review, sublet press, Entropy, Susan/The Journal & is forthcoming in Sorority Mansion among others. She is founder/editor of yell/shout/scream & rose quartz journal. Twitter: ahumantornado.

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first and last party i will ever throw

here we are: pirouetting at the start
of the end, lionhearted and roaring,
giddy on the rosemary-infused vodka
of our blood, tiptoeing a cotton-candy
horizon, about to — but first, let’s party!
let’s pop! champagne, hopscotch
on tightrope, skinny dip in the punch
bowl of god’s sky, pucker up and kiss
quietly. then loudly. let’s freeze laughs
into a popsicle, suck hard at this party,
giggle about our brutal youth, & ballet
on a peach bellybutton. let’s trampoline
& land softly, eat yoghurt off nose-
tips, bury tongues in our fondue. let’s
forget gravity & dive upward. let’s forget
to land. here i am – a piñata spinning,
slowly, full of candy, ready to be split
open. please, don’t hit me, yet.
please let me spin awhile. please,
let me have more time
at this party.

Kit Lea Cheang is an undergraduate at Yale University. Her fiction has been featured in Cha: An Asian Literary Journal and is forthcoming in Curating Alexandria. Born and raised in Singapore, Kit Lea is an editor at the Yale Daily News and performs with spoken word group Jook Songs.

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Red Light

The grave diggers of Cypress Hill are seated
at the right hand of the foreman,
coffee breaking the native tongue,
flag July mourning what is to come-
carbon and bronze put back to earth,
solemn jokes shared by all; told by none.

John Macdonald has been writing poetry for the last four years. Prior work has been published in Chronogram and Belleville Park Pages. He has worked for the last 18 years as an operations manager for a large communications company in Manhattan. He currently divides his time between Forest Hills, the East Village, and Williamsburg.

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“To think of death”

It might surprise you to know:
I do think of death.
Not in the weird orphan way
you pounce at the sky’s
dubious messages,
but like a blanket
I am coming
to the forest
to bury the leaves
with what I have

Zams is a cat who lives in the place some humans call Chicago. She is here to help.

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City Blues

Bone chattering

rickshaw driver,
slow down.

I feel the weight of us
slip through his

left leg. His
tattered loafer

sinks into the groove
of the road. It

tells us that someone
bigger has been here before;

the brakes on his
bike stopped working

two weeks ago, but,
my god, he knows

how to rev and release,
I don’t feel a thing.

I adjust my hands:
palms open,

wrists crossed,
patient anchor on

my gut, hold me down
until morning.

Through smog, smoke,
through song, I see it now:

The sun is a star.
The sun is a star.
The sun is a star.

Mehtab Kaur is a writer who was once initiated into a gang without realizing it. She lives alone with her cat in Los Angeles, CA.

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Safe in Death

Ah, sweet sleep,
Sweet slumber,
Sweet death.
When will you come to me?
To release me from all my pain
To free me from all the hurt

Begone all oppressors and tyrants,
You have no power over me now.
I will be with my Lord,
The one being that cares for me
Through the hatred, the mockery,
The minimization of my being.
Begone! I am safe!

I have grown aged and decrepit
By the power of sin
Like a sacrifice my beauty was taken
My mind once exploding with figuring
Now tired, sapped, so many ideas and hopes killed.
My muscles ache from straining,
Pliability now gone
My heart stops, then starts,
Not sure if it should beat on.
I sit still and wait for the Lord to fetch me.

My last breath will be a gasp
At the sight of the Lord,
And I will laugh when He says,
“See, that wasn’t so bad.”
“Come joyfully to me,
This is where you belong.”
And all worries and strife
Will evaporate and
No longer exist.

But I in my soul
Will live forever in the Lord.
Without earth-borne parameters.
Earthly foolishness, you matter not!

Prayer for my Life

Why am I here
Answer me God

In silence I find my answer
Silence which rules the universe
And fingers destiny through the ages

Amalgamation of spirit and clay am I
My turn to join life’s rhythms

I grew in fits
I sought evenness
I found equilibrium

Grateful I got to dance

Seeing the wisdom of His way hidden
In every life experience

God you fill me to the brim

Now used and tired vessel
My body returns to the clay which formed me
And it’s as it should be

My spirit returns to its source,
The Almighty.

Outta Here

It’s the end. What do I want to say?
‘F you’ to all the bastards.
‘Thank you’ to anyone who was a friend.
‘The world needs help,’ would be my final conclusion from my research here.
And I’d ask ‘Why.’ Like I’ve been asking my whole life. Why is the world
So messed up? Why are people so mean? Why don’t people get
That we need to help each other while we’re here.
If you’re one that believes that this is all there is,
Why do you trash the place?
Why do you trash the people who are stuck
Here with you and could
Actually help you enjoy it more.
Then I’d end with
‘What was was’ and
‘It doesn’t matter anymore.’
Not to me, anyway. I’m
Outta here.

Clara Klein has been a freelance writer for almost 30 years She first took up the pen to help her cope after her mother’s death, and hasn’t stopped writing since. Many of her writings are poems, prayers, and prose about life situations. Her aim is to inspire and help people by sharing wisdom she has learned from difficult circumstances. The subject of final poems was apropos for her to write about, as she has been forced to face the subject of death head on.

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DEMENTIA

When she unraveled,
I collected
her frayed edges
and tangled words

and knit
the embrace
of her.

In the cold abyss
of my own
unknown,
she keeps me warm.

And now I know
why she taught me
how to sew.

Michele Popadich is a Chicago native. She has been published in Driftless. She has self-pu blished ananthology called Unsweetened, as well as Uncharted, a travel themed book of poetry and photo graphy.She also runs an Instagram account called Petit Poetry which celebrates the union of the visual and thelyrical elements  of poetry into one delightfully petit experience.

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Dream Wind

The place where we ache to go again.
-“Don Draper”-

It begins by dreaming itself into form, ripple and wave,
soft swell and breaker, whatever source it springs from,
desolate lover’s plaint, shimmery scorched alluvial bed,
gnarly surfer Jersey shore pipeline, Margate to Manahatta,
so small a thing this summer wind shrouding hollyhock mallow,
shedding willow fuzz abroad, passing politely, first, as mist
over bottomland poplar and sycamore, upland stone-sere conifer,
ascending as thick fog to meet mountain peak and crest
in dense, blind florets as unclear as life itself, we lumpen,
motely, spirit-dreaming proles waiting to bliss highs and lows
of living in the Not Knowing, waiting to Only Connect! be taken
to a place on every summer breath where we know we are loved,
where, when night turns blue and starlit, all else just fine dust filaments.

-March 2018-

FROM FALLING was published Fall 2017 (Spirit-of-the-Ram P). Work appears in AGNI, CINCINNATI POETRY R, KANSAS Q, LOUISVILLE R, MISSISSIPPI R, NEW YORK Q, RHINO, SONORA R, TEXAS OBSERVER; PITTSBURGH Q; & BASEBALL BARD, among others. EVERYTHING SPEAKING CHINESE received the SunStone Poetry Prize (AZ). Recognitions include NEA & NEH Fellowships and nominations for Pushcarts and The NEA Western States’ Book Awards. Dream Wind manuscript is currently under review at publishers. I divide personal and professional lives between Asia and the Desert/Mountain Southwest.

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ONE WEEK LEFT

See,

Feel,

Listen,
Touch, be-

Live. Beware,
Behold all
That comes, be-

Seech, be free in ways
That past decades did
Not allow you. Taste
The air when the sun
Rises, spread your arms…

SIX DAYS LEFT

Think,

Dream,

Search and
You’ll find

A spaceship
By your side.
Look at her,

Drink her, relish her,
Tell her you hope to
Find her waiting for
You at heaven’s gate.
Then watch the sun rise.

FIVE DAYS LEFT

Smile,

Laugh,

Allow
Your heart

To be glad.
Allay your
Children’s fears.

Play in dirt with them,
Ask them about their
Dreams and hopes and if
They had a way to
Save the world; They will!

FOUR DAYS

Now,

Cry.

Let your
Anguish

Become at
One with death.
Make a list

Of the things you must
Do if you had an
Extra day or week.
You are allowed to
Look for real spaceships!

THREE DAYS

Sleep!

Wake,

And sleep
Again.

The past four
Days are gone.
Look ahead.

Two Days

Do

All

Again
In one.

D-day

Die!

Ahmad Holderness is a poet, aspiring writer, and a medical doctor. His poems and haikus have appeared in different journals. He believes poetry can be used as a medication and hope his collections can be bought at a drugstore in the future. He writes from Lagos, Nigeria where he enjoys the aromatherapy of family life.

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“Creating Cataclysm: Buarquean Construct”

I

He ignored his soul like it would last.
He cultivated his mind like it was his last,
And his body like it was weak,
And paced his room like he was meek.

He shuttered his windows like he was entombed.
He barricaded the street like he was doomed.
Door to door with insistent fervor,
Bleary-eyed about town with triumphant clamor.

He alerted the state like it was destiny.
He fled the coast seeking shelter.
He tumbled into waves like a deity.
When the Earth stopped, he imploded like a whirlpool.

He hurtled from the Earth like a tumbleweed,
And burned through the solar system like kindling,
And disintegrated through the galaxy like a dandelion,
And fluttered through the supercluster like a feather,
And vanished at the edge of the multiverse like he was gossamer.

II

He ignored his soul like it was his last.
He cultivated his mind like it was his last,
And his body like it was redundant,
And paced his room like he was a fervor.

He shuttered his windows like it was shelter.
He barricaded the street like he was a dandelion.
Door to door with insistent destiny,
Bleary-eyed about town with triumphant gossamer.

He alerted the state like it was doomed.
He fled the coast seeking clemency.
He tumbled into waves like a whirlpool.
When the Earth stopped, he imploded like a tumbleweed.

He hurtled from the Earth like a feather.
He burned through the solar system like a deity.
He disintegrated through the galaxy like he was entombed.
He fluttered through the supercluster like he was meek,
And vanished at the edge of the multiverse like he was weak.

III

He ignored his soul like it was kindling.
He cultivated his mind like it was a deity.
He barricaded the street like he was a tumbleweed.
He alerted the state like it was a dandelion,
And disintegrated through the galaxy like he was gossamer,
And fluttered through the supercluster like he was doomed,
And vanished at the edge of the multiverse like it was destiny.

IV

For this smog-ridden air; for this endless despair;
For this dank lair; for the demon not there;
For this thin hair; for this lack of care;
God bless me.

For your damned heir; for his empty chair;
For an answered prayer; for this rotten pear;
For this mended tear; for a divided pair;
God bless me.

For all I accidentally impair; for all you repair;
For a face so fair; for all you ensnare;
For a longing stare; for a passing scare;
God bless me.

Bernardo Villela has a BFA in Film from LIU Post. His first short film Suffer the Little Children, won four awards at 13 festivals worldwide. He has since branched out directing and editing short films, editing a feature, writing and directing a TV commercial; and writing and directing for theater. He’s most recently turned to fiction publishing a novella and three short story collections. You can read more about these various pursuits at www.miller-villela.com.

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All we have is this moment

It all has to end
I suppose I should teach you that
We are not eternal

Like the spring blossoms
Cherry petals white and pink
Rain in flittering descent
Wind-charted; how, where, when
They will fall

It all has to end
Let that be your reason for living
We are not eternal

Our campfire burning down
Even now the embers glowing
Red outline, opaque core
The s’mores gooey overflowing
Sweetness of this moment

It all has to end, so
Love impermanence’s caress
Let go of fear, cinder that would char
Experience, live knowing
We are not eternal.

Michael DeMaranville loves poetry and is constantly looking for inspiration. He has taught English in Korea, Vietnam, Russia, and currently lives and teaches in China.

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Dear Crestfallen Leaf,
I love your poetry beyond belief
Your words exude love, comfort, sweet relief
For this young old soul now battling disease
Awaiting Mother Mary’s soft whisper, “Let It Be”
Bringing a whole new meaning to carpe diem, seize.

Running down the dream, only to find
Karma’s a trip, with no travel agent in mind
And this, my desperate attempt to answer you in kind.
Maybe just one last trip, for old times’ sake
Niagara, Superior, Victoria Lake
“But the sea is wide and I cannot swim over
Nor have I the wings to fly.”

Still might I fashion, from my imagination,
Destinations just over that horizon.
Chocolate on your pillow, a room with a view
Through my mind’s eye
I glimpse Scarborough, Innisfree, Xanadu.

“Take the wave now and know that you’re free.
Turn your back on the land, face the sea.
And in due time, I will forge
A bridge over troubled water
To lead you back home.”
Full circle on this accidental poem.

“È la fede che
Hai acceso in noi
Sento che ci salverà.”

Nita Jain is a a 25-year-old biochemist from Lilburn, Georgia. Jain enjoys hiking, watching documentaries, playing piano, and trivia. Jain’s role models include Rosalind Franklin, Rachel Carson, Ada Lovelace, Alan Turing, Richard Feynman, Carl Sagan, and Oliver Sacks.

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let me tell you about a moment i remember
in a life where they are the cheapest currency
devalued, and
not recognized at most major
airport money exchange counters

i remember a pause we co-wrote.

you were cutting garlic
you always did it better than me
i was stirring tomatoes until the bitterness would leave them

when our moment came
a pause leached of the sharp taste of half-cooked tomatoes

we stood inside each others’ overlapping arcs of energy
without looking behind me to where you stood
holding my existence with such sweet lack of effort
us wrapped in each other easy as pie
interlaced fingers of dough touching in the middle yet
open to sunlight, receptive to moisture

knowing that to turn to you would be like coming home
but staying where i was
because i knew you wouldn’t leave

that i wouldn’t find myself alone in a hot kitchen
stirring former tomatoes, now stripped of their skin
and without the soft embrace of garlic to enhance them

no, i knew you’d still be there
coming up behind me, at any minute to pass over
those small white bits
your hands fragrant
you, holding me still,

Ilse is an uncertain, sensitive English teacher who has lived and taught in Uganda, Laos, and soon China.

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At The End Of It All

Colossal angled fingers,
Stretching to the sky,
Extending, uncurling like spiders legs,
Wide and red.

Poetry allows S.Peters to describe sensations that are ephemeral, abstract and poignant. Her #finalpoem was written at 30,000ft in a state of painful ecstasy, as she flew to America alone to begin a new life there. The poem describes both a fleeting moment of intense joy as well as a sensation of transcendental movement, fear and an almost holy, alien sense of purpose. “My very being was flying through the sky and I felt as if my whole body was stretching, striving for something. I am continuously living in that moment and this poem represents that.”

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Womyn is Phoenix. Is God.

And finally
the entire thing is gone,
swallowed as the earth licks itself aflame

sun,
an unapologetic master heads home

moon,
mistress of the night beckons sweetly in the belly of darkness.

In the beginning man slept
as the beauty of womyn was fashioned, and

I can imagine the Creator speechless while
molding flesh into curves,
lips into resistance,
hair a lasso of truth,
eyes the very embodiment of Styx,
thighs the gates to forever, now and then.

I can imagine the angels gathered,
nodding,
reverent,
wings shivering in awe at the image of God—

perfect He created them, and
when the jaws of this foundation bite shut
only She can create this life, fashion
like Him in Her image as the man sleeps—

spent like the sun.

Gervanna Stephens is a girl from a small Caribbean island with congenital amputation. She is a poet, educator, and a proud Slytherin. Gervanna has had poems published in several print and online magazines, including Whirlwind Magazine, 12 Point Collective, Spillwords and Anti-Heroin Chic. She hates public speaking, has two sisters who are way better writers than her and thinks unicorns laugh at us when we say they aren’t real.